(yawn) u bitches bore me..........lol. Females already starting shit well this a new year so I don't care lol ............NEXT

Day-22

What makes you different from everyone else


Just bein me makes me different, i different in so many ways . iam full of different personality's i experss how i feel about everything , i keep real wit people ,i give people to many sec chances when i really shouldnt Lovable> Energetic>Adorable>Heartwarming !!!! I do me always , i dont follow no bitch or no bum !!!  

Day-21

A picture of something that makes you happy

Day-20

Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future




UMMMM NO ONE SINGLE 4 LIFE !! ..............LOL 

day-19

Nicknames you have; why do you have them


ooooooooooooooooo not telling this one lol !!!!!!!!! 

Day-18

Plans/dreams/goals you have


My plans r to b 100000% more than i am  , i plan to stop playing mind games wit myself n focus on me . My dreams r to live my life the way i want it n stop living in the past , i want to b in the entertain world lol .......meaning opening up my own businesses !!!! goal that dream is goin to come tru !!! n iam makin it happen 

Day-17

> Another picture of yourself

everybody .........

Marriage !

See marriage don't change, nothing but your name,Unless it's real love, through the sunshine and the rain,For better or for worse, girl this is not a game,See marriage don't change, nothing but your name,Marriage don't change, nothing but your name,Unless it's real love, through the joy and through the pain,It's more than a ceremony, more than a wedding ring,A marriage won't change, nothing but your name

By Marques Houston

Cancer or Gemini ???????

So twitter was goin crazy over this  change wit the zodiac ......... so my sgin  has switch to Gemini  i dont hav a problem wit that cuz i was on the board-line anyway !!  so iam not mad lol but people were heated !! lol  my old sign was cancer switch is not bad , i still say i hav a lil cancer in me , but then i guess its not bad to change cuz of the new year i decide to control my emotions n thoughts , just b more brave hearted !!

Day-16

>Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why


The person I would switch with for a day would be MS CECE AKA CIARA  need i say more lol ....she an amazing person  in does so much and gives so much life , she doesnt care wit anyone say !! she a wonderful girl and a powerful  role model 

on the J-O-B HUNT !!!!!!

nonstop ............

WOW !!! OK I C U

tupac - throw back !!!!

CLOSIN THE LOVE GATES.......I THINK ??

I thought i could just let the past b the past n move on wit the new year bein year .......=/ its not has easy has i thought but i kno i can  do it . it will just take time ,theres nothing wrong wit takin a trip to a past love is there?

JUST THINK

They say let the past b the past but wat if the past is the only thing u got to keep u holdin on I say sometimes people think its holdin on that makes one stronger but sometimes its lettin go

Day-15

 >Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

1. Unthinkable (I'm Ready)-A.Keys
2. Nothing On You-B.Mars
3. Me, Myself and I-beyonce
4. T.Y.A-chris brown
5. So Cold-chris brown
6. Shoes-chris brown
7. Click Flash-caira
8. Ride It (Ft. Ludacris)-ciara
9. Yearbook - Ciara
10. Speechless (Mastered)-Ciara

STRESS !!!!!!!!!!!!

So i found out that i wont /might not b goin to school !! COLLEGE drop my CLASSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I NEED A JOB ASAP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! REALLY I DO UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! I JUST FEELIN LIKE SCREAMING!!!!!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!IAMMM SOOOOO STRESS RIGHT NOW !!!!!

so feelin this !!!!!

Day-14

>A picture of you and your family

Day-13

> A letter to someone who has hurt you recently

I dont kno if u will ever c this but i cant keep this inside of my heart :

I dont kno wat happen to us ,  but it really killed me when u ended our friendship and wat we had . It killed me when u told me that u would never love me the way i love u ! u werent just somebody i loved and wanted to be wit , u were my best friend !!  People say that i will get over and tell me i shouldnt get so upset and that i shouldnt drop tears over u , But c they dont understand u meant so much to me , i cant just get over it , i really love u , u were my heart ! I cant just say o well fuck him ! its not that easy , its hard to get over someone u love to the core , its hard to stop thinkin about that someone u had plans to be wit in the future ,my eyes filled wit so many tears knowin that i will never hear u say u love me ,and knowin that i will never hear yo voice agian , and the biggest of them all knowin that i will never hav that future wit  u or my bestfriend !   I remember tellin u that i would  love u no matter wat happens even if u decide to go wit another girl  that i would still love u the same . and i still do , my love hasnt change  for u . Iam still here if u need me ! To be honest i tried to make myself hate u so the pain in my heart would go away, but i couldnt . i sit and wonder if u think about how this would effected me and if u even cared ?   I never thought i would lose u . idk what i did to lose u .  i kno u hav a girl and u dont look at me the same anymore =/ but i dont want our friendship to end ! just to let u kno iam always here for u no matter wat  T and  i will alway love u 

Day-12

> How you found out about Blogger and why you made one
I found out about blogger on google just browsing through things then came across it , i made one cuz i hav alot to say  !!

Day-11

>Another picture of you and your friends

Day-10

>Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad


Happy-winner by Drake 
Sad-Me,Myself and I-beyonce 
Mad-radio -beyonce
Hyped-Pretty girl swag by Keri Hilson
Bored-with you by lil wanye 

U JUST BEEN READ !!!!PT1

LOOK YALL TRAPS ASS BITCHES N YALL WORTHLESS ASS BUMS YALL SOME REAL FAKE ASS PEOPLE HOW YALL GONE TALK SHIT ABOUT ME  THEN TRY TO CALL N BE FRIEND ME LOL REALLY U GOT THE WRONG ONE !!! YUP I HAPPY I HACK INTO ALL YALL SHIT !!!!!YES SIR I DID !!!!! I READ EVERY MESSAGE THAT HAD MY NAME IN IT !!!! REALLY I C HOW YALL DO !!! THATS Y I STOP TALKIN TO YALL CUZ YALL SOME SNAKES ASS BITCHES WAT YALL DOIN WIT YALL LIFE PLZ TELL ME I WILL WAIT ................UH O NOTHING YEA THATS RIGHT OK !!! LOL SMH YALL JUST DONT KNO !!!! LOL

back on track

School is about to start back n  I NEED TO  GET BACK ON TRACK n  say fuck the drama n say fuck the bullshit !!! i need to get my shit together n not worry about the boys, girls n other bull !! school is wats important!

Day-09

>Something you’re proud of in the past few days
in the past few days iam proud that i hav kept up wit my blog !!! n i hav not let any bullshit get to me , i also hav a positive mindset !!

tru 2 the core

MUSIC

I love music it takes me places i never been its always there for  me when i need it !!!!! ups n downs its there!! i dont kno wat i would do if i didnt hav music !

NO CELLPHONE FOR AN HOUR !!!!!!!!!!!!

Iam on my phone 24/7 soooooo i decide to give myself a one hour cut off time ! iamma cut my phone off for an hour n do something for me !!!!!!! mmmmmmm lets c wat happens!!!!!!!!!!! lol.............startin mon

Day-08

>Short term goals for this month and why
My short term goals for this month would b to complete this challenge of me ! another goal would b drinkin nothing but water n less junk food  no meat n less pop ! ANOTHER  goal would b a free drama n bullshit from my life .for this month iam goin to hav a JOB, n focus on school !!! 

TATS !!!!!!!!!

Iam in love wit TATS iam plannin on gettin about 8 n countin lol  iam not gettin anything crazy all my tats r goin to mean something ! i seen alot of crazy tats n i seen some good ones lol  i also love tats on guys something about them

look back .........

i took a look back  in memory lane n went to my old blog and read some old  post n WOW  theres some deep thoughts  n feelings bein express !!!!! i was goin through alot wit love lol shockin to c wat a heartbreaks looks like !! lol smh wow i wonder if i let him read theses old post wat would he say lol.......... my old blog started off wow GREAT !!! then just had ups n downs !!!!! i wont put myself through that this year  I WILL B DAMMMMMMM IF I DO CANT GO lol liviin life happy !! but some of the old blog post made my heart open some old love gates lol to wat i used to hav n the good times lol i really miss that ! but its the past i left it in  2010 no need for me to go back in reopen just passin n takin a sec to stop n look !!! lol

Day-07

>A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you

marsha ambrosius

She just became a big impact on me wit her music in the words she speaks !!

Dear , lost love .........not just yet !!!!

I kno your out there some where lookin n waitin for me , cuz iam doin the same for u , but i hav to say iam sorry i hav givin up on u , but please dont stop lookin for me iam still here waitin for u , and when that day comes when we meet i promise i wont ever let u go , but iam not ready yet ! iam not ready for u yet , i cant give u the key to my heart not just yet but when i do , i will never take it back ! i cant promise things will b great 24/7 but i can promise u  i will always b there for u , n love u forever  i can wait until day u put your arms around me n never let go !

feelin something ..........

I got this feelin i dont kno if its a good or bad its just a feeling.........so much on the mind , iam bein pulled in so many different directions ! i need a couple days of me NO BETTER YET A YEAR OF ME ! so now  its F.Y.F aka Fuck Yo Feelings LOL  , i dont want to be wit anyone anymore !!! i just cant take another heartbreak !! soooooooooo ALL I CAN SAY IS F.Y.F lol

MY SHOW IS BACK !!!!!!! PRETTY LITTLE LAIRS !!!!

Marsha Ambrosius - Far Away

I LOVE THIS VIDEO ..... I HATE HOW IT ENDED THO THATS SO WRONG I HATE GAY BASHING  MALE OR FEMALE  I DONT CARE IT DOESNT GIVE TO THE RIGHT TO HURT PEOPLE CUZ OF WAT THEY SEXUALLY!!! IAM 20 YEARS FEMALE WHO ISNT GAY N I HATE GAY BASHIN !!!!!! I HATE IT !!! I LOVE THE GAYS !! I CANT STAND PEOPLE WHO JUDGE CUZ OF WAT THEY LIKE SEXUALLY OR BECAUSE THERE DIFFERENT THAT IS A POWERFUL VID !!! SO POWERFUL I LOVED IT !! PEOPLE NEED TO STOP WIT THE HATE !!! ITS 2011 COME ON NOW !! SUICIDED IS NO JOKE U CAN EFFECT PEOPLE IN MANYS WAYS WIT YO WORDS N ACTIONS !SO WATCH WAT U SAY N WAT U DO TO OTHERS !! IF U DONT GOT NOTHING NICE TO SAY DONT SAY NOTHING AT ALL !! 

Day-06

>Favorite super hero and why
My favorite  SUPER HERO STORM cuz she a bad bitch lol shes strong , n has complete control over the weather , n can take ya azz out wit the qiuckest lol !! 

Day-05

 A picture of somewhere you’ve been to

T.G.I.F 

almost..........

I almost felt for it yea I gain lil feelings for someone new n gain some feelings for someone old but iam snappin out of it n gettin back to FYF

Day-04

>A habit that you wish you didn’t have


A habit i wish i didnt hav would prolly b being so open hearted n so open  , i fall for people so quick  , n b friend them so easily witout really getting to kno them first , n iam so open wit my feelings to people who dont care ,i keep givin people so many chances after they did me wrong , i open my heart and givin them another chance its hard for me to close my heart n turn my back on them ! 

On the hunt FOR THE J-O-B !!!!!!

money yes i need it  !!!!!!!!! there r so manys things  i need to buy for myself its crazy , i am  so happy that i dont hav any kids i kno thats prolly mean but iam yung 20 i need things , I REALLY NEED a job i dont c y people get a job then they work for a while then quit for the dumbest stuff !!!  I CANT GO i need my money !! iam on the job hunt for real i need to stack my money up!!

Day-03

> A picture of you and your friends

Inside n Out

So i hav another challenge for myself , i decide to drink only water for  month and if i can do that then i will continue to do it , i want to get my body back in shape n skin clear !Also ! decide not to eat meat !!! iam not goin to eat meat for a year everyday goin to b hard but i think i can do it lol , iam workin on the inside n out ,

Day-02

 >The meaning behind your Blog name
The meaning behind my blogs name Random&Real is the all the random things that come to my mind , i see,n express in my blog post , its not just focus on one thing but multiple things , Its also real things that come from my heart ,mind n everyday life iam not holdin anything back anymore ! Some People might not like wat i hav to say but hey its real so .......deal wit it.

No longer ...........

Iam  leavin everybody back in 2010 ....... all the drama , heartbreaks , tears !!!! i cant deal wit this year last year was alot !!! lol ups n downs this year its a  new me , no longer lookin for love , no longer chasin after lost love , they have to look for me , THE ONLY THING IAM CHASIN IS MONEY N MY DREAM !   iam to yung to b tryin to deal wit all the drama n bullshit i dont need that this year ! I want an all smiles year !!!! i kno there will b some downs but not like the downs i had last year !!!! noooooooo not this year ! cant wait to c wats goin to happen this year i hav so many things plan !!!!!! iam no longer givin a fuck wat people say about me , no longer givin  a fuck about he say she say drama !!! lol i left that in 2010 so if try to come at me wit that u will get a rude awaking cuz i will not react to u !! lol  IAM NO LONGER HOLDIN BACK !!!

quote of the day

Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning. 


>i follow this quote cuz u cant dwell on the past , just keep hoping for the better the next day and keep goin wit life in livin 

Puttin it all together

Iam lookin for a new look from head to toe , Iam not a girly girly !!!!!iam more of a tomboy/girly  , iamma start from the top and work my way down !


>The hair color i hav now is a dark brown which is my natural hair  color , I want to change my hair color to warm mocha n sunkiss brown.

   

>Next would b clothes iam the hoodie type of girl emoish but , iam tryin not to wear hoodie like i did last year almost 24/7 , n i wore the semi cover up shirts, Iam goin to to start wearing  more v-necks and mix colors n cardigans , collar shirts .

  

> I wore skinny jeans which i love n boyfriend, rip jeans , imma the keep the skinny jeans n rip jeans n start wearing  jeggings n different type of jeans like ash jeans  n bleach jeans 

>i really didnt wear that much jewelry , but i wanna step my jewelry &belts  up 2, i really dont like the dangling ear rings , i like the studs , i want different type of accessories from rings to necklaces .


I wore mostly air force ones , IAM NOT A HEEL CHICK  lol but iamm wheelin to change n step my shoe game up 

Nicki Minaj - Dear Old Nicki

Lovin this song